Changing Tomorrow 6
by Danielle
 

** emphasis
// thoughts

The vampire opened his eyes and realized that he was sitting with his head on the table. Spike sat up and wiped his face. It was damp from crying.

“Bloody hell! Our future sucks!” the blonde vampire shouted as his shaking hands wiped tears from his face. He remembered each image as if he’d already lived it. Around them, the dancing and drinking continued and nobody had noticed the scene.

“But you feel the truth in it, don’t you? This is a really interesting layout we have here. I’m putting these memories in my special volume. Remember that this is just a version of the future and that you have a chance to change this, if you haven’t already. Here, you’ll want these.” Priya brought over a tray full of shots; Xander and the vampire started working their way through them.

“I leave a girl named Anya at the altar; I cheat on Cordelia; Buffy dies again—I lose an eye?” Xander broke down.

Without thinking, Spike leaned in and turned the boy’s face to look at him. The human was slick with sweat and cold to the touch.

“We’re changing this bollocks. Make sure it never happens...I’m not getting a fucking soul--” Spike was in a panic. “--And I’m *not* shagging the sodding Slayer!” He punctuated the last by slamming his shot on the table.

Xander snagged two cigarettes from the blonde vampire’s pack and lit them, giving one to Spike. He coughed and gagged after the first puff, but smoking seemed to settle him. “Angel is supposed to go all evil on Buffy’s birthday, so w-we won’t start the whole process with Acathla—how do I know that name?”

“You’re given enough knowledge about each situation to know vaguely what each vision is about. Plus, you’ll remember details, smaller events later. You just crammed about five years of information into your heads--give yourselves time to adjust. You know, I’ve collected a lot of stories, but yours is one of the most exciting.”

“So the first thing that happens in all this is the poof losing his soul?”

“No, more current things will start coming to you. The only thing is this: You can’t tell anyone what happened tonight. You were the ones chosen to receive this information, not them.”

“And if we do?” Xander asked.

“That’s just the thing. You can’t. Something will happen to you to prevent it. You’ll lose your voice or your lips will swell up or your writing hand will get a cramp.” She grinned. “It’s a protective measure, you see.”

Priya glanced at her watch and said, “Well, I’ve gotta go, but it was nice meeting you. Thanks for the memories!” She chuckled as she turned and left the shell-shocked duo.

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A depressed and tormented Xander took another shot and handed one to Spike. “So…where were we? Something about you killing me dead?” The hopeful tone in the youth’s voice was only half-kidding. The vampire had to admire the sense of humor.

“Oh no, you’re not getting off that easy, mate.” Spike downed his shot and waved the waitress over for a few beers. When she tried to I.D. Xander, the vampire let his eyes go yellow as he ‘persuaded’ her to bend the rules a bit. When she set the mugs down and left, he said, ”Not gonna eat you. Yet.” Pheromones assaulted his senses, and he glared disbelievingly. He had chosen to disregard the boy’s signs of interest throughout that night. No way was Xander having the warm fuzzies for him.

Xander studied him for a second before speaking, “You know, aside from you being the most frightening vamp I ever met, I couldn’t help but feel like that other you was a good guy. Future Spike withstood torture and sought out a soul, then died to save the world--anyone with that kind of guts might actually be able to change the screwed up future we have.”

The admiration in the youth’s voice had touched Spike deeply. //I do *not* care what some sodding child thinks!//

“Are you *trying* to make me kill you?” Spike snapped and glared hatefully at the human. The vampire leaned close enough to feel hot breath on his face. “Let’s get this straight, whelp. I’m doing this so I don’t get flash fried. If you happen not to catch syphilis--which is bloody hilarious in my book--so be it.”

“Okay, okay! No need to get all fang-y about it. I-It was a compliment.” Xander took his last shot and frowned at his mug. Was it bad etiquette to refuse a beer that a Master Vampire had ordered for you?

He hadn’t had much beer in his life, but now certainly seemed to be a good time to start. The absurdity and direness of the situation sunk in. “And how can we love someone who won’t even exist for two years?”

“*Dawn.*”

The longing and affection in the vampire’s voice startled them both. Their eyes met, and something like understanding passed between them.

“First things first: how do we keep Angel’s soul where it is without telling them?” Xander took an experimental drink of his beer, gagging to keep the dark ale down.

“We don’t.” Spike absently looked around the club.

“What?”

“Look, if we bollocks up the future too much, we’ll just end up with something worse in the end, right?”

Xander was beginning to understand, but it just seemed too complicated.

“So,” Spike continued, “we go on and act like nothing happened. Meet in secret if something comes up. I won’t kill you or your bloody pals, since too much of our futures are intertwined. And when it comes time to re-soul him, we’ll be ready.”

“Okay, but can’t we just make sure someone else finds out about the happiness clause before they do it?”

Spike drained his mug, slammed it on the table, and stood. “Or that. Finish your drink, we’re leaving.”

Xander gulped down the last of the beer, grimacing as Spike pulled him out of the Bronze and into his blacked-out DeSoto.

He directed Spike to his house, knowing it would probably cost him dearly later.

The vampire explained the bizarre act of driving him home, “How am I gonna keep an eye on the Slayer if you’re dead? Can’t sodding plan this with anyone else, now can I? I’ll find you in a few days. ‘Til then, try to remember if anything happens between now and that Acathla bollocks. Anything that might help us later.”

They walked to the human’s front door and Xander stole glances at the seemingly nonchalant vampire. //Yep, still gorgeous. What the hell am I thinking? //

“What are you gonna do?” the human asked when he was safely across the threshold.

A shadow passed over the vampire’s face as he turned away. “Got a loose end to tie up…”

Xander frowned as he closed the door and snuck up to his room.

//Let’s see…I just spent the night drinking with a vampire that I’m lusting after and trying to change the future! It doesn’t get any better than this!//

The visions had been horrendous, and Xander was pretty sure he’d be scarred for life no matter what happened. You didn’t experience that kind of reality without it destroying something inside you.

Already, the human felt like he’d been through a war. If he didn’t put a concerted effort into thinking of something else, the scenes in his head replayed in agonizing detail, steeping him in powerful emotions that threatened to overcome him.

Only Spike knew what he was going through. Xander went to bed, plagued by a nightmare full of blood and heartbreak.

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Spike had reached a grim conclusion. One he thought he’d never have to make. Drusilla was going to choose Angelus over him, then run off time and time again. She would alert Angelus to Jenny Calendar’s restoration spell and to where Acathla was buried. He couldn’t carry on with her. Not while he knew what was to come and her visions would be a constant threat to the plan to repair the future.

Heart heavy, the vampire entered their bedroom. His ripe plum was in deep slumber, waiting for her prince to arrive. Spike cuddled close, tipping her neck and whispering words of love and regret. His face rippled as he brought the demon out and he sank his fangs into her neck.

He would never have been able to do this if it weren’t for the feelings he’d experienced in the visions. As it stood now, the vampire felt like he had already lost her at least twice over. The worst thing was that some of the ‘sacrifice one to save all’ mentality had rubbed off from his future self.

“Mmmm, my Spike…” she mumbled. The blonde was sure that his sleeping beauty thought this was foreplay, not murder. She cooed and writhed, blissful to the end when he drained the last of her blood and she scattered to dust.

Drusilla filled his senses, amplifying the vampire’s grief. He curled into the ash-filled bed and sobbed himself to unconsciousness.

 

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