WANDERING
PROPERTIES OF DEATH
by
Lorien
Notes
It was a
fine fall evening; Indian summer giving over to crisp coolness and the tang of
leaves in the air as they wandered side by side together, the usual banter
having fallen by the wayside. The silence was a newer thing between them, but
something they both quietly relished; a chance to put away the barbs and just…be
with each other. This camaraderie had been growing between them steadily ever
since Spike had moved in with Xander, at the younger man’s insistence after
seeing the pitiable state of Spike’s then current crypt.
Both were
dirty and tired from dusting a small nest of vamps, and took a moment to rest,
Spike leading Xander to an older crypt for them to lean against. As Xander slid
down to sit, he grimaced and hissed, hands going to his side to check for the damage he had not even known was there
until sweat trickled into it. Spike, showing an unusual amount of concern was
there immediately, cool fingers brushing away Xander’s own and gently lifting
his shirt, soothing the long scratch with soft touches and softer
murmurs.
As Spike caressed him, the rest of the world
fell away for a moment, a silence hovering over them that seemed to Xander a
very fragile thing. His eyes lay fascinated on the play of Spike’s long, white
digits ghosting over his own tanned skin, basking in the kindness of the other
man. Holding his breath, he laid his hand gently on the curve of Spike’s skull,
gathering the vampire’s attention. As soon as he glanced up, a question in his eyes, Xander’s
hand moved to cup his chin, and he simply looked, willing his intent silently
with dark eyes, thumb moving, almost of it’s own accord to sweep over Spike’s
lower lip to quiet the words that he knew were about to come pouring out. He
leant over and brushed his lips to Spike’s, just as he had a million times in
his mind these last few months. Only this….this was better than anything his
mind could provide. Soft and real and tender, small breaths puffing over cool
skin as he teased, lathing his love on the vampire. A brief moment of hesitation
from Spike, and then he was there, joining Xander in exploration, hands skirting
over his shoulder to card gently through his hair, a small whimper escaping from
somewhere deep inside, and it seemed he would almost break at Xander’s
answering rumble.
The kiss seemed to go on forever, both of them
pouring out unspoken devotions to each other, until finally Xander pulled back
to breathe, head tilted back, eyes on the sky above, noting with a regretful and
small frown that it was close to dawn,
black fading, stars winking out under a deep indigo blue. Taking Spike’s hand in
his own, he levered up and off the ground, pulling the vampire along with him.
They stood there for a moment, taking in the landscape, fingers entwined, both
knowing that this place, this particular
graveyard would forever be a little different for them whenever they came
back. With a chaste kiss on Spike’s hand, Xander smiled and they started on the
walk home, towards something new.
*****
In a Graveyard
Wandering
properties of death
Arresting moons within our eyes and smiles
We did rest
Amongst the granite tombs to catch our breath
Worldly sounds of
endless warring
Were for just a moment silent stars
Worldly boundaries of
dying
Were for just a moment never ours
All was new
Just as the black
horizons blue
Then along the bending path away
I smiled in knowing
we'd be back one day
Rufus Wainwright