refraction
Spike curls his
fingers into fists and tucks them into his pockets. Looks at Connor and decides
that taking a beating suits him. Pretty lips pounded to fullness and a trace of
stubble adds to the dishevelled image and Spike suddenly feels like roughing
him up a little more. Connor lies there like a pile of leaves the vampire aches
to wade through, regardless of the mess it would leave. He’s young, true, a
little younger then when William was turned. There’s knowingness behind those
scowling eyes, a suffering and determination not to be ground down. A far cry
from that dead nancy-boy poet who still thought his cock was for stirring his
tea. Spike examines the broad forehead and wonders what Grandpa would make of
the unkempt hair. It would be a tender scene indeed – the sharing of hair gel.
“Tell me, why I
shouldn’t kill you.” Connor’s voice is hoarse, as if he’s just woken up and
realised where he is.
“Now that’s rich!”
Spike snorts. “I’ve just saved your bleedin’ life, that’s why.” He swivels on
his heel.
“Wait!”
The vampire stops too
quickly, but then Connor seems in no hurry to stand.
“You’re not like those
other…” when Junior searches for the right word, Spike comes to the rescue for
the second time that evening.
“Girls?” the vampire
offers, settling easily against the car. He crosses his ankles and looks up at
the sky. It’s stopped raining. “Nice weather we’re ‘aving.”
The kid isn’t too
injured to roll his eyes.
“You know – you’re
just a bum. You look like a freak and…” Connor sits up and explores the damage
to his face with cautious finger tips.
He catches Spike’s
expression. “You’re not hungry, are you?”
“Not very, no.” Spike
feels a catch in his throat when he sees the bloodied hand, and the scent reminds
him who he is, who ‘they’ are. He pushes away the instinct beaten into him that
bade him drop to his knees before Angelus. He covers up his feelings and shakes
his dignity awake by rearranging his coat over an alert cock. Just the scent of
his grandsire was enough. “Why? Want to
take me to dinner, do you?” His sarcasm is ignored. “You getting up or what?”
Connor makes a show of
the lack of effort, but Spike can tell – he can sense the pain.
“You hurt?”
“No. “Connor shuffles
past him.
***
Why would a vampire
take any interest in a human’s pleasure or pain? It had crossed his mind to
stake him but…’something’ had made him hesitate. Connor drags one boot in front
of the other, wondering at the strangeness of his life. He wants to talk, ask
questions and at the same time wants to run away from what he might find out.
Connor pauses momentarily when he hears Spike behind him. The vampire is
silhouetted against the street lights, his coat tails fanning as he hops to
catch up.
And that smell again now
he’s closer– the scent of bleeding stems invades Connor’s nostrils suddenly
like frosty air. Still isn’t sure it’s coming from the vampire so Connor
inhales again deeply, aware of the need to be quiet. He knows to keep his guard
up around the vamp. He holds the scent
in his gut for a while…Jesus…needs to
check so the human lifts his own wrist close to his mouth, touches a bruised
lip, draws a short breath just to be
sure…yes, it’s himself. He can smell
himself. Questions…
“So, dinner then?”
Spike says.
No point. This guy
wouldn’t give a straight answer.
Connor sets off, wants
to talk so much he’s struck dumb.
***
And this feeling was
all too familiar. The lick of flames in his belly. Angelus’s brat shaking him off and here he
was prancing after him like a good childe…
“You asked if I was hungry. S’pose I could eat. There’s a nice Chinky a
couple of blocks that way.” Spike tries to sound friendly, but his voice is
loud in the deserted streets.
Connor stops again. Ah,
got him now!
The human’s eyebrows
almost meet. Spike has learned to live with people not understanding a lot of
what he’s saying. Most of the time he
enjoys it. Good fun irritating Grandpa
and his human pets that way.
“Chinese food. You must like Chinese food.” The kid’s
obviously a half-wit. Nothing to do with him being English at all. The Irish - ever
humourless and literal.
“I need to get home.
Mom, Dad – they’ll be wondering…it’s late.”
“Ah, ‘Dad’…” Spike
emphasises the word Dad deliberately.
That’s stopped him in
his tracks. Wide eyes, shadow-sculpted cheek bones, long slender neck twisting
to try and read Spike’s expression. But Spike was never very good at intrigue.
He could have spun this out, but he fancied a bite to eat. Well, he fancied a
bite but since he wasn’t going to get one of those in the foreseeable future,
ribs would have to do. He loved ribs, not much meat, lots of canine action.
“You heard me right. ‘Dad’. “Spike slips into Big Bad mode.
It’s easy, never forgets his lines or where to stand. He leans close, nose to
nose, enough to detect a hint of Angelus in the young man’s scent, enough to
stir up ancient desire and resentment. “Do you think you got that from him?
That strength. Think about it!” He
grabs a wet sleeve. “Your ‘Dad’ know how to fight like that? “
***
“Why are you following
me? Why did you save me from that vamp tonight?” But he isn’t giving Spike time
to answer; he’s too busy pounding the vampire’s face, every punch accompanied
by a grunt and a sneer. “Fuck off! Keep away from me!” Spike just soaks it up,
waits for him to stop as if he knows that Connor’s curiosity, his need to know, will prevent a dusting. Spike’s
landed against a railing and the human’s breathing heavily, teeth bared. “Fight
back, you pervert!”
This seems to hit the
vampire harder than any fist. Spike appears to grow a foot taller as he lifts
Connor by the shoulders and slams him against the nearest wall.
“Little shit!” He’s in
game face now, deadly teeth scouring the surface of the human’s jaw, the
sensation arousing Connor much to his horror. “I oughtta…”
Yellow eyes so close,
drawing him in. Connor gulps, waits. Spike’s knee is between his thighs
preventing escape, undead hands gripping his shoulders. No breath, just the low
growl of the predator vibrating between their entwined bodies. And the human
senses the hesitation, the taut leash that was somehow holding this demon.
“I thought…I thought
you said you weren’t hungry?”
The vampire blinks,
releases Connor’s shoulders and laughs. Laughs like a teenage boy who’s just
heard a dirty story.
“Sod this.”
And he’s gone in a
dash of leather and tobacco, leaving Connor a shaking mess on the sidewalk.