"Mornin' love,"
Spike padded into the kitchen, went round a patch of late afternoon, summer
sunshine and grazed his lips against Xander's once, twice. He pulled a face at
the pizza congealing on the counter, snagged Xander's cup of coffee and went
back the way he'd come.
"Hey," Xander
smiled, already pulling a couple of mugs out of a cupboard. He poured coffee
for himself, blood for Spike and set the timer. "Hard night?"
Xander set the steaming mugs
on the coffee table in front of Spike's armchair and plonked onto Spike's lap.
"Lillith," Spike
yawned against his nape, wrapping his arms around Xander's waist, "and her
crew…"
"…of rowdy left wing
hooligans," Xander finished.
He wondered about the
mysterious Lillith. But hey, Spike was here. So they didn't talk about the
house or where they were going with this; so they didn't make plans more than a
week in advance. So what? Spike was here.
Xander folded his arms over
Spike's and nestled back. Spike rested his brow on Xander's nape and dozed.
Shadows in the room lengthened, Mr Data droned from the TV and another idyllic
Sunday crept by, just like the many Sundays that had crept by since Spike and
Xander come to their understanding.
Unexpectedly and unwelcome,
efficient Michel Bernier bustled onto the stage, reminding Xander and Spike
that Utopia only existed in story books. He was an interior designer BB often
contracted and he excitedly told Xander that one of his deals had fallen
through and that he would be able to start on the house right away.
They tried to adjust to this
news in their own ways. Xander dropped by the house less and less. Spike
reverted to diva-type behaviour. He didn't like anything Michel suggested and
changed his mind on one thing or another every week.
"No problem,"
Michel forged ahead, undaunted. "We'll fix it."
Spike whined and nagged and
was the same in bed. Changeable. One day touchy feely and the next grumpily
turning his back, discouraging contact with arsenic-laced comments. But always,
no matter his mood, sucking insistently at Xander, leaving vivid hickies on his
neck, torso, arms. Xander had had quite enough of him.
“Damn it, Spike, what the
hell's the matter with you!” He shouted one evening.
“Well fucking slay me for
not wanting yellow trim in my bathroom,” Spike replied, slapping a photo onto
the kitchen work unit.
“It’s not yellow, it’s
sun-burst,” Xander corrected.
“Yellow!” Spike shot back.
“Sun-burst!”
“You’re as bad as Michel,
saying that with a straight face. Sun-pissing-burst? Bollocks! Just another bloody
name for yellow. Get rid, Harris. And tell that quack of a fucking decorator
that I want blue. ”
"Fine, anything to shut
you up," Xander hissed, two seconds from yanking at his hair.
Spike poured cooling blood
down the plug-hole, grimacing. “I’m sick of bagged. Don’t see why I can’t prick
a vein or two.” He pushed past Xander, snagged his duster and headed out.
Xander glared, that was
something else they had not talked about; that and Spike's walking away when
things got a little heated. Xander let him go, living with Spike could be a
chore and Xander was in no mood to pacify.
By the time Spike skulked
back, they were both pathetically eager to make up. Xander opened his arms and
pacified. He knew how to pacify Spike. Xander knew that if he plunged and
thrust into Spike while whispering syrupy commands telling Spike to come for
him, Spike would hold back out of sheer stubbornness. Xander knew that if he
crudely, graphically told Spike what he was going to do to his clenching
pucker, his cock and his balls, he would only have to tweak Spike's nipple,
bite on his earlobe, before Spike was coming with a loud string of expletives.
Xander worked Spike over,
turned him upside-down, back to front and inside-out. So much so that Spike’s
possessive demon in residence promised to destroy its host if Spike did not
take this boy for keeps.
Spike didn't need
threatening, he already doubted that he would find the strength to leave.
* *
* *
"Spike?" Xander
asked as he went round the living room clearing cans, glasses and ashtrays
littering the room after the departure of his friends.
"Xander?" Spike
looked up from loading the dishwasher.
"How come I never get
to meet any of your friends?" It had been bugging Xander. Was Spike
ashamed to be seen with him or something?
"Friends?"
"Buddies, chums,
mates…the ones you're always gassing on the phone with that aren't Willow,
Dawn, or him of the fine, upstanding hair."
"I know what friends
are, pillock!" Spike impatiently gestured for the tableware. "Why
would you want to meet them?"
Xander flushed, "I just
thought…forget it."
Spike wore a puzzled frown
as he watched Xander's stilted movements, "yeah, if it's that important,
you can meet the stuffed shirts this week and the week after…"
"Nah, forget it. It's not
that important…" it got through to Xander that Spike was planning TWO
whole weeks in advance. "And the week after?"
"Lillith's throwing a party," Spike smiled, relieving Xander of the glasses and stepping closer.
Xander now sat at a huge
rectangular table, bored to death and quietly groaning up at the twinkling
chandelier as yet another course was brought in by uniformed staff. He caught
Spike's eye and winked surreptitiously across the table. Xander sniggered into
his wine glass when Spike responded by flicking his gaze to the door and
sucking briefly on the tip of a finger.
Xander counted 14 'stuffed
shirts' gathered around the table. They were a mixed bag, young and old, pale
and tanned, suited gents and bejewelled ladies. He amused himself by trying to
guess who was demony and who was human. But he couldn't tell for sure.
"Are you listening,
young man?" A gruff voice boomed in his left ear, startling him.
"Jesus!" Xander
clapped a hand to his ear, "ya, I'm listening."
"Well then, what's your
take on all this Euro nonsense?" The man munched on venison.
"Codswallop, I say! It will be a sad day when I'll need Euros in my wallet
for a spot of shopping on
"When's the last time
you actually paid for anything, Alfred dear?" An immaculately groomed
woman snorted.
"That is not the point
at all, Esme. It's outrageous enough that we've lost imperial measures and have
to learn these blasted kilos and grams!" Alfred sprayed minute pieces of
chewed venison over the table.
Spike sat up straighter,
flicking at his jacket sleeve with thumb and forefinger, "the world is
changing, Freddy, in all ways...the slayer has become the slayers, or hadn't
you heard? We're a dying breed, we keep doing things the olde way, we'll soon
be extinct."
"You know your problem,
William?" Alfred pointed an accusing fork, "no offence to the fine
people at this table, but you're too partial to humans. Your soul doesn't make
you one of them…they'll be the death of you, mark my words. Water and oil, my
boy, water and oil, can't mix the two."
Don't listen to him, baby,
Xander thought, clearing his throat loudly.
But Spike took no notice. He
was tapping a knife on the snow white table cloth and hearing Alfred's comments
reverberate in his ears.
* *
* *
After that Declaration of
Doom, Xander wasn't so sure about meeting anymore of Spike's 'friends'. But he
had not yet discovered a way to resist Spike's artful persuasion, which was why
Xander was staring at a grinning, metal skull nailed to a black front door.
"I guess I should be
grateful it's not the real thing, huh?" He fretted, pointing at the
hideous skull.
"Oh that," Spike
banged a fist on the door, "it's to shoo cold callers away, talks, you
know."
"What does it say -
fuck off?"
Spike's lips curved into a
tiny smile, "in many languages."
"You're kidding -"
The door swung open and a
shrill bundle of auburn ringlets draped in green velvet flew into Spike's arms.
He locked his wrists under her butt as she wrapped her legs around his hips.
"Happy…what are we celebrating
this time?" Spike grinned.
"Life," Lillith
shrugged.
He kissed her full on the
mouth, "happy life it is."
Xander was not impressed. He
was even less impressed when a young man peeled Lillith off of Spike and took
her place.
"Pucker up,
darling," he ordered Spike, presenting his red cupid's bow.
Spike shook his head,
shrugged him off, "give it a bloody rest, Raven, don't you ever get tired
of the painful rebuff?"
Raven slid off Spike,
flicking jet-black hair over his shoulder, "no, not really." He sized
Xander up from head to toe to head, "who's this? He's a bit of
alright."
Lillith smacked him upside
the head, "hey!" She smiled at Xander and lead the way into the
cramped, busy hallway "I'm Lillith and this is my cousin, Raven. He's
got no manners and he's frustrated because try as he may, he can't get
laid," Lillith shouted over thumping rock music.
Xander offered Raven his
brightest smile, "hi. I'm Xander and I'm way relaxed because I can get
laid," he glanced at Spike over Raven's shoulder, "do, as a matter of
fact."
Lillith and Spike chuckled.
"Oooh, saucy!"
Raven acknowledged with twinkling grey eyes and down-turned mouth. "Come
meet everyone else. I expect none of us will get a word in edgeways, now that
she's got her claws into him," he jerked a thumb back at Lillith, who had
silver bedecked fingers clutching Spike's. "Bitch."
Raven started to lead Xander
away but, "Raven?" Spike asked tilting his head.
"I'll look after
him," Raven smiled, draping his arm across Xander's shoulders.
"That's what I'm
bothered about," Spike returned the smile with glacial eyes.
"My, we're becoming a
tad selfish. Whatever happened to sharing?"
"Take a bleeding hint,
love," Spike squared his shoulders, "Not with him."
Xander looked from one to
the other, wanting to point out that 'him' had a name, thank you.
"D'you mind you
two?" Lillith intervened, "this is supposed to be a party. Raven,
behave. Spike, relax. Xander, can you fox-trot?"
Xander shook his head,
"but I wanna see how that's possible with rock music."
Lillith, Spike and Raven
took up the challenge, fox-trotting, waltzing, bumping and grinding and getting
down to salsa all to the beat of rock. Xander watched their cavorting, smiling
at the vampire infected with life fever. He wandered around the room, taking in
the gauzy, colourful shawls spread over lamps, the murals painted on the walls
and Lillith's guests. Most of the latter, like Lillith and Raven, were swathed
in crushed velvet and ankle-length coats.
Feeling neglected, Xander
headed for a table pushed into one corner of the room. He filled a plastic cup
with suspect-looking punch and was raising it to his lips when he heard a groan
he would recognise from the deepest of sleeps. Xander whirled round, scanned
the couples smooching and gyrating to slow music and blanched.
Spike, HIS Spike, was
sandwiched between Lillith and Raven. Lillith moved sinuously against his front
and Raven against his back. Spike looked like he was loving it. He had one hand
groping behind him for Raven's coat, the other tangled in Lillith's ringlets
and his head thrown back against Raven's shoulder.
"Raven," Spike
lisped through canines, tugging on a fist full leather.
Raven grasped Spike's in
thumb and forefinger and tilted his mouth to the junction of his neck and
shoulder. Spike's body was a collection of pulsating nerve ends. A red mist of
longing descended over him and in that moment, Spike could hear only blood
howling for blood.
He nuzzled, bit and sucked.
It was like it always was with Raven; white fire blazing through his veins,
filling his cock, calming the itching of his fangs and lifting him off into the
ether. Lillith's fangs penetrated him with a cold sharpness, her mouth dragged,
pulled, demanded and Spike was teetering between wicked pleasure and exquisite
pain. The liquid rush, the crazy hurtling of his blood as it raced to answer
Lillith's demand, left Spike in a state of light-headed euphoria. He laughed,
deep, slow and dirty.
Raven rumbled and dragged his nails along Spike's jaw. He
raised red-tipped fingers to his mouth, lazily licking at them, while looking
straight at Xander.
Icy fingers tip-toed up and
down Xander's spine at the unearthly glare in those silver-grey eyes. They
slithered down Xander's body, lingered on his bulging crotch and brimmed with
amusement. Lillith's arm drifted in front of his face and Raven dismissed
Xander. He captured the arm and latched his lips to the inside of her wrist.
The three of them writhed,
and rumbled; pale throats emitted sounds of dark satisfaction, while supple
limbs coiled together and sensuous hips languidly rotated. Xander watched with
hitching breath and ashen face. It hurt. His fist clenched and unclenched,
missing the squishy stress ball.
"Enough," Raven
released Lillith, dislodged her from Spike and Spike from himself.
Spike shook his head clear
of red mist, whispered to Raven and Lillith and slid from between them. His
step was bouncy and his smile wide-eyed and innocent as he came towards Xander.
The lack of remorse in Spike's smile refined Xander's hurt. He dove for the
nearest exit and found himself in a brightly lit kitchen crowded with plants.
"Xander?" Spike
had dove after him. He was still grinning, albeit a little less confidently.
Xander's stomach rolled at
the sight of red stains on Spike's lips, "is this where you run to every
excuse you can get?"
Spike's steps were wary
because Xander's face was beet red and getting redder, "I-"
"You couldn't get a
room? You had to flaunt that…that - what the fuck was that? What else do you
get up to with Bastard and Bitch?" Jealous fury turned chocolate eyes to
near-black, keeping Spike's approach cautious.
"Xander, I'm-"
Xander backed away, holding
a palm up. "Don't Spike. Save it; I'm not listening to your bull."
Spike stopped, frowned,
"save it?" His frown encompassed the few spectators in the kitchen.
They dithered and muttered as they left.
"Your apology, whatever
you're about to say, save it!" Xander replied harshly.
Spike lounged against the
door, "what am I apologising for?"
Xander's eyes and mouth were
unbelieving Os. "Is that supposed to be funny? I saw it all!" He
paced.
"You saw all
what?" Spike asked quietly, only succeeding in fuelling Xander's anger.
"Get out, Spike, go on,
fuck off. Or better still, I'll leave," Xander heaved on the door leading
to the outside, it didn't budge. "Move," he loomed in front of Spike.
Spike didn't budge.
"Thought you wanted to meet my friends?" He blinked rapidly, wishing
he didn't have this need for Xander to understand.
"Yeah and can I say
fucking freaks? Thanks a bunch, but I've met all I'd like to of Diablo and
Cousin out there," Xander raged. "Don't you have any normal
friends?"
Spike flinched, "oh,
you mean normal like me?" He stepped sideways away from the door and
Xander.
Shit! No, no, I didn't
mean…no, don't look at me like that, Spike. Xander made an effort to tame his
ragged breathing. "I didn't mean it like that," he sounded deflated.
"It's what you bloody
think, Xander and that's fine coz you're right; I'm not the boy from next door
and maybe we both forgot that."
Spike strode over to a
cupboard, got a glass, rummaged under the sink and straightened up holding a
bottle of whiskey. The bottle's lip clinked unsteadily against the glass as a
wavering stream of amber liquid tumbled into the glass. Spike set the bottle
aside carefully.
It wasn't just what Xander
had said. It was the fucking house, that wanker Alfred, memories of how well
his last dalliance with a human had gone and this pretence. Spike knocked his
drink back. He could pretend many things, but he couldn't pretend that he
wasn't a vampire. Spike perched on the edge of the table with feet planted
apart and met Xander's gaze.
"I won't apologise for
who I am pet, for WHAT I am," he poured another drink.
Xander felt small and mean,
like a vengeful mosquito that won't quit. "I…don't want the boy next door.
Spike? I'm sorry." He went to stand between Spike's thighs. "I'm
sorry. I had no right. It's just Raven and Lillith were…they were kinda
possessive." And you were soaking it up, you slut.
A smile scurried across
Spike's lips and disappeared into troubled blue eyes, "it wasn't that sort
of bite, Xan."
Xander looked blank,
"no?" He dipped two fingers into the whiskey and passed them across
Spike's lips, wiping away stains of Raven.
"No. Claiming's only
for someone a vampire really, really likes…it's, it's serious stuff. You're
his, he's yours…for life; can't go running to the magistrate quoting
irreconcilable differences."
Xander wet his fingers and
scrubbed again at traces of that ass-hole Raven, "you gonna tell me what
just happened in there, or do I have to beg?" He took a mouthful from
Spike's glass.
"A vampire might like
you, Xander, but not be sure if it's with one 'really' or two," the air,
like Spike's voice, became hot and heavy. He lapped whiskey off dripping
fingers, accepted it from Xander's fierce, branding lips. "He might want
to take something of you and give something of himself," Spike squeezed
Xander's legs with his thighs, "sharing - a fangy sort of tactile."
A light pinged on in Xander's
mind: the dissatisfaction, the hickies…"you wanna share?" He
whispered.
Spike kissed Xander's neck
"So badly," he rasped. He slid his hands into Xander's back pockets,
kneaded his butt, pulled him close. "Want you so badly."
Xander shivered, "yes.
Now."
Spike laughed, deep, slow
and dirty. "No, now we boogie and proceed to get shit-faced."
* *
* *
Hangover. The cost of
getting fantastically shit-faced. It was late afternoon before Xander and Spike
crawled out of bed, and even then, only to grab something quick to eat and flop
onto the couch. They lay with their heads side by side and legs hanging over
opposite ends of the couch.
"How long have you
known those guys?" Xander asked, turning his head and lazily gnawing on
Spike's chin.
"Too long," Spike
took a handful of Xander's hair, repositioned his mouth and drew his lower lip
into his mouth.
Xander wasn't all that
interested in Raven and Lillith. He settled down for some slow, upside-down
kissing, swearing when the phone rang shrilly.
"Get that,
sweetie?" He asked, before twining his tongue with Spike's.
"No, you bloody get
it," Spike groaned when he could.
"Mmmm…no, you…"
"…no baby, you…"
The machine got it.
"Alex. Michel here.
Can't get hold of Lawson-Smith on his cell. Man's never at his hotel. We're
done. Cleaning crew's just leaving. Tell Lawson-Smith, willya?"
Xander and Spike's lips held
still in mid-kiss.
"God, God," Xander
whispered, paused, breathed. "God, what happens now, Spike?"
"What do you want to
happen, Xander? I'll give whatever,"
Spike returned in quivering baritone.
Considering his heightened
sense of anxiety, Xander couldn't really be blamed for putting more speed than
thought into his reply. "I want it all, everything, for now, for tonight;
I want all of you," he gulped back the 'please'; begging would only oil
Spike's wheels.
Spike inhaled sharply; he'd
heard, but most loudly, he'd heard 'for now, for tonight.'