BEGGARS
CAN'T BE CHOOSERS 5
By
Nash
Notes
Xander woke up with a newfound
feeling of contentment. The sun was shining, the birds were chirping and Spike
loved him. Spike was in no way about to dump him for a certain blond Slayer.
Spike was his. His Spike. “My Spike,” he whispered grinning widely and snuggled
closer to said Spike.
He turned to look at his lover, admiring the
smooth lines of the body lying next to him. The beauty of Spike’s face was so
oddly peaceful without the blue of his eyes sparkling at the world. Xander had
done this many times, watching Spike while he was asleep; yearning for something
more than the physical intimacy they shared. And now he had it. He had Spike’s
love. Xander smiled at that thought.
Xander nudged his vampire and
whispered his name. “Come on sweetie I wanna talk to you.”
Spike shifted
and growled, eyes still closed. “Sod off Xan. All fucked out. Wanna
sleep.”
The brunet giggled, eliciting a sleepy frown and another ‘sod
off’ from the vampire. “I just wanted to tell you I’m going to Willow’s after
work,” he whispered and smiled at the nearly inaudible murmur he got in reply.
As he headed out, he paused at the bedroom door. “Love you
Spike.”
Eyes still closed, the vampire smiled. “Love you too Xan. Now
piss off.”
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All day at work Xander was cheerful, beaming
at his co-workers and laughing at the slightest thing. Soon there was a lot of
good-natured teasing about Harris being in love again.
“So, Xander,
who’s the lucky lady?” Richardson asked.
Xander hesitated, not so much
because the lucky lady was a man, the guys had already known he was bi; they’d
even met Jeremy. No Xander hesitated because he wasn’t sure Spike wanted
everyone to know yet. Sure the blonde had professed his love, but they hadn’t
discussed telling anyone yet. But even that didn’t matter anymore because the
most important thing was that Spike loved him. The rest would come soon
enough.
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Xander fairly bounced all the way to
the Magic Shop, still lost in the wave of euphoria Spike’s words had brought
about. He walked along singing inside his head ‘Spike loves me and I love
Spike!’ He walked into the shop, goofy grin firmly in place and grabbed Willow
leading her into a merry little waltz singing out loud now “And Spike loves me
and I love Spike and Spike loves me”.
Willow laughed as she allowed
herself to be swept around the room by the singing Xander. “What are you on
about sweetie? Or should my question be what are you *on*?” she asked the minute
Xander stopped dancing her around.
“Weren’t you listening?! Spike said he
loves me.” The previous night’s delighted grin made a welcome return as Xander
replayed the scene in his head. “He loves me Willow! Me, not Buffy!
Me!”
“I’m so happy for you Xander,” Willow said and hugged her friend
excitedly. “But why aren’t you with him now?” she asked. “Isn’t this supposed to
be the honeymoon period or something?”
“I kinda need your help Wills.”
Xander blushed and dove headfirst into a babble, “I wanna buy him an
‘I-love-you’ present and I dunno what to get him. I mean I want it to be
something that’s with him all the time, like a ring, but I don’t think a ring
would be right ‘cause, you know, rings mean stuff. Not that I don’t want stuff,
but well, I don’t think either of us is ready for ring-stuff and I just want
your help picking something out.”
Willow laughed at her friend’s happy,
though discomfited, babble and immediately offered her gift-finding services.
The two of them spent the afternoon at the mall going from one jewellery shop to
the other until Xander finally found something he was satisfied with.
It
was a thin gold chain, just long enough to fit around Spike’s neck. “It can’t be
too long, what if he’s gonna be wearing it during patrols and stuff,,” Xander
stated. “And also, it’s pretty!” He concluded with a smile.
They were
just leaving the shop, Xander still smiling at the perfect gift he’d found, when
they ran into Jeremy.
“Jeremy… hi,” Xander said, good mood dying a
little.
“Hey Xan, Willow,” Jeremy replied calmly. “How’s it
going?”
“Well enough. You?” Willow smiled awkwardly, still feeling a
little guilty for setting him up with Xander.
“Can’t complain,” Jeremy
said. He seemed about to say something further when he was interrupted by the
arrival of a fair young man. “Hey sweetheart, ready to go?” the new arrival
asked.
Jeremy smiled at his companion. “Sure Tom, I was just talking
to some old friends.” He turned back to Xander and Willow and said goodbye. “It
was nice to see you again Xander. I mean that.” He smiled and turned to go.
“Well, that was in no way awkward,” Xander said when Jeremy was out of
hearing range.
“Nope, not awkward at all,” Willow replied, still looking
at the direction the two men had gone. “Still, it’s nice to know he got over
you,” she went on thoughtfully.
“Oh, come on Willow, it’s not like I’m
*that* hard to get over,” Xander said, already walking towards his
car.
“You’re talking to the person who had a crush on you for *how* many
years? Trust me Xan, you’re kinda hard to forget.” Willow smiled. “Betcha Spike
thinks that too!”
“Yeah?” He laughed and put an arm around her
shoulder.
“Yeah,” she agreed, giggling with
him.
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By the time they made their way back
to the Magic Shop it was after dark. As they entered the shop still laughing at
some private joke, Xander saw Spike talking to Buffy. He waited for the usual
feelings of inadequacy and insecurity to wash over him but nothing happened. He
smiled his delighted smile, said a cheerful hello to the both of them and
followed Willow to the back room to deposit their purchases.
“Wills can
you do me a favour?” he asked as soon as they’d gone
in.
“Sure.”
“Can you find an excuse to send Spike home early or
something? I wanna give him his present!” Xander bounced a little at the
thought.
“I’ve been wanting some time off too. Tell you what, I’ll just
close shop early and talk Buffy into a girly night in. That should leave you
boys free for the gift giving.” Willow smiled at the brilliance of her
plan.
A couple of hours later the Magic Shop was closed and Spike and
Xander were walking through their front door. The minute they were in the
apartment Xander grabbed Spike and kissed him to within an inch of his unlife.
He pulled back and smiled when Spike immediately chased his lips. Xander
felt a little nervous now that the time had come to actually give the chain to
Spike. It may not be a ring, but it still meant something, or it did to Xander
anyway.
Spike leaned in to kiss his boy again only to growl when Xander
moved away; he couldn’t kiss a vampire like that and then just stop!
“Spike? Sweetheart, I got you something,” Xander said
nervously.
The blonde opened his eyes and glared at Xander for a moment
before the boy’s words penetrated his brain. His frown turned into puzzlement.
“What’s the occasion, pet?” he asked.
“No occasion, I just felt like it,”
the brunet replied. He fished the package from his pocket and tentatively gave
it to Spike.
The minute the blonde took the package Xander started
babbling a mile a minute. “You don’t really have to wear it. I mean it’s not
like it’s compulsory, you know? I hope you like it. And if you don’t like it you
have to tell me so we can go pick a different one. Or even just take it back;
you don’t really have to get one of these. I picked it out myself and
I-”
He was interrupted by Spike kissing him hard on the lips. “Don’t
worry about it Xander, I’m sure I’ll love it. Now relax and shut up so I can
open my prezzie.” He said and ripped open the wrapping to reveal the jeweller’s
box. Looking at the name on the box, he glanced speculatively at Xander before
opening it.
The minute the box was opened Xander was asking whether
Spike liked it. The blonde smiled at him. “It’s beautiful, Xan. And even if it
wasn’t I’d still treasure it ‘cause it’s from you.”
“Really?” Xander
asked in a voice full of hope.
“Of course, luv. I think you underestimate
the sentimental idiot that I am,” Spike said, smiling softly at him. “Now help
me put it on.”
Xander grinned and hastened to put the chain on Spike’s
neck. Just as he’d imagined, it hung snugly on the blonde’s neck, resting on the
hollow between his collarbones.
“I’ll never take it off Xan, I promise,”
Spike said solemnly and kissed him. “Now let me say thank you for the nice
present,” he said with a smirk.
Spike gradually backed Xander to the
bedroom, kissing him all the time and slowly taking his clothes off him. He led
the boy to the bed, pushing him so he fell backwards on the bed and then falling
to his knees before his lover.
Xander yelped as Spike pushed his legs
apart. He had little time to react before Spike took firm hold of his erection
and began to massage the hard flesh, mouth firmly attached and sucking on the
head of his cock. All the boy could do was arch his back and plead with Spike
not to stop, hands threading through Spike’s hair in an illusive show of
control.
Spike moved down, taking all of Xander’s cock into his mouth,
hand moving down to cup and stroke the boy’s balls. More broken begging followed
this action only to stop with a moan when the blonde pushed a finger in Xander’s
hole, expertly rubbing against his prostate.
Between Spike’s mouth and
hands, Xander was a writhing, moaning mess. Feeling the boy come close to
orgasm, Spike abandoned his cock and turned his attention to the splayed thighs
before him, sucking and biting gently.
“Fuck Spike, don’t stop, why did
you stop, so close, please Spike, sweetheart, please go back,” Xander babbled
desperately seeking any kind of feeling, anything to make him come.
Spike laughed softly and run his tongue over his lover’s balls, down to
his perineum, moving swiftly to his puckered hole and running his tongue across
it over and over again. He ignored Xander’s entreaties to
fuckmesuckmedamnitSpikedosomethingnow.
When he was satisfied with his
lover’s level of frustration Spike went back to massaging his cock, sucking on
the crown, one hand rolling and squeezing his balls. It didn’t take long for
Xander to arch off the bed and explode in Spike’s mouth. The second he came down
from the high, Xander fell back on the bed and completely lost
consciousness.
“Guess I’ll take that as a compliment and take care of
this myself,” Spike grumbled good-naturedly, looking down at his own engorged
member.
When Xander swam back into consciousness some time later, he was
lying under the covers, Spike’s head resting on his chest. He looked down to
find blue eyes watching him thoughtfully.
“You know, I as thinking -”
Spike started to say only to be interrupted by Xander chuckling.
“You
really shouldn’t do that Bleach, it doesn’t really work for you,” the boy
teased.
“Ha bloody ha, pet,” Spike grumbled, “see if *I* ever tell you
anything again.” The blonde ended the sentence with a pout, looking at Xander
from under his eyelashes.
“God, not the pout!” Xander exclaimed, “I’m
sorry I ever doubted your intelligence oh mighty one, I bow before your genius!”
he went on, earning himself a smack on the thigh.
“As I was saying before
I was so rudely interrupted,” Spike started again, glaring at the brunet, “You
walk around with those big lovey-dovey eyes and soulful looks in my direction
for much longer and the girls are going to figure it all out. So I was
thinking…maybe we should just tell them now.”
“You mean it? Really? We
can tell them?” Xander asked eyes wide with amazement.
Xander’s mind was
racing with possibilities, he’d finally be able to hold Spike’s hand when they
were patrolling! He could tell the guys at work about the ‘mystery lady’, he
could steal kisses in the Magic Shop without Spike looking around nervously,
afraid of being caught…he looked at the vampire again, waiting for the
confirmation that would allow his dreams to come true.
“I mean it,
really, we can tell them,” Spike smiled, happy to finally put all his doubts to
rest and allow himself to enjoy his love for Xander. He was happier still to
have put that look of utter joy and wonderment in his lover’s face. “Tell you
what,” he continued, “we can get everyone together tomorrow after patrol and
tell them all at once, yeah? It’s the school holidays so Buffy won’t have a
problem with Dawn waiting up for us.”
If anything, Xander’s smile became
even wider and he hugged Spike closer to him, kissing him deeply and whispering
words of love and appreciation. He finally drifted to sleep, smile still fixed
firmly on his face.